Living up to your dream can be daunting; am I right?! There are so many things that can go wrong and so many people that can tell you that you're not cut out for this. For me, I was one of those people, but towards myself.
My love for photography started when I was about thirteen years old when I had come across a photographer while on my phone, and fell obsessed with her work (and when I mean obsessed, I mean I legit followed her every post...creepy right?!) Eventually my parents got me a Cannon Rebel SL1 for Christmas (my first camera ever!!!) and I absolutely loved that thing, even if all I knew was how to press the shutter button. I would literally take pictures of the blades of grass in my yard, yet I couldn't ever get my pictures to look how I wanted them to. I grew impatient and began to feel frustrated. Tired of failing all the time, I started to drift away from photography. I had become so busy with work, school, and sports that I didn't have time for anything else... rather I didn't make time for anything else.
During that time period of my life, I began to feel like I was only going through the motions of life. I felt like I wasn't fulfilling the purpose God made me for. Beginning to feel bored with my life, I started to pick up my camera more and research a lot about photography. I had started following that photographer again and that is when I knew I needed to follow my dream.
When I reached high school, I had enrolled in a yearbook class, which inspired my love for photography even more! At this point, I started to seriously consider this as a career, but there was always these doubts. What if I'm not good enough? What if everything fails? In my heart I knew what I loved to do, but my brain was telling me the complete opposite. I kept battling with myself on what I should be doing. Knowing that my whole life career was on the line was terrifying! People would always tell me that I needed a backup plan, or to have an open mind to other career options.
Yet, one day when I was with one of my friends, talking about college. At this point I was still very hesitant on my decision about pursing photography and whether or not I should major in something else. But before I could continue she stopped me and said, "with God, you don't need a backup plan." And that hit me like a bullet!
You see, God already has life's problems figured out. If photography wasn't my calling
Since then, I have never looked back and wondered "what if?" If this isn't my purpose then God will point me in a different direction, but for now, all my passion and drive is being placed in my love for photography. And I am as happy as ever!
If you are battling with difficult decisions today, I encourage you to follow your dreams, relax, let God handle it. If it is not part of your plan, you'll know.
Do what makes you happy!
~Raegan Katherine :)
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